The number eight has been rolling around in my brain for the past few days. I assumed it was because we will soon be marking the eighth anniversary of my daughter’s death.
However, it dawned on me yesterday that there was more to it than that. I realized that September 12th would have been her 28th birthday and eight days after her birthday is the 20th – the day she died – eight years ago.
As all of those realities sank in, I began to see the number eight in my mind’s eye. And I began to pay attention.
Notice that once you put your pen on paper you can make an eight in one fluid motion and you have two circles that intersect one on top of the other. This is a metaphor for the relationship that Liz and I continue to share.
Our lives will always intersect. She will always play a part in my life and I will always play a part in hers. Each circle represents one of us. The top circle represents Liz because she is now on a higher plain than I am. Her energy vibrates at a much higher level than mine does. She has moved on to a higher plain of existence or heaven, so she is the top circle - I continue my work here on earth so I represent the bottom circle - we are in different worlds – but yet still solidly connected.
Look again at the eight — it is like a path that can be followed. You may start out at the top and work your way down (to earth) and then continue to go back up — Liz did that. Or you can start at the top and continue down and follow the same road as long as you need to and then you switch lanes and move up – but whatever your path you always remain connected.
Whenever September rolls around I try to make sense of things — but most of the time there is no sense to be made — it just is. Choices were made and consequences followed — for both of us. But what gives me comfort and solace today is the gentle nudge that I believe Liz is giving me to remember that just like the number eight our lives will always be intersecting with each other. And one day, when my job here is complete I will move to that top circle and we will truly be together – two balls of love-filled energy.
That knowing makes me smile and it is what will make the days of September just a little bit easier to bear.
Thank you Liz — once again — you never cease to amaze me!
Love,
Mom
PS – I just realized – today is the 9th – I should have paid more attention and made this post yesterday! Oh well.
Kim
